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Name: David
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: San Diego
Birthday: 12/20/1982
Gender: Male
Interests: Pseudo Bohemian, Artist, Animator, Music lover, Crossfader, car buff, connoisseur of fast food, Social hermit, bumming around, Airsoft fanatic(technician), idling the time away to rhythmic tunes, and the futility of staying young forever.
Expertise: Would love to say art, but my skills are lacking, years of neglect... what can I say ;)
ummmm... hotdogs... and other various fart foods..
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
4/1/2004
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| It's been over a month, and I'm still in a lousy state of "CG itus" I'm still burnt out, my imagination's been smothered out, I sit here with a extreme case of artist block, I'm completely exhausted of ideas for my Demo Reel.
There seems to be a lack of motivation, mixed in with the senation of being extremely burnt out, a post colleigate dosage of senioritus, seconds anyone?
That with the fact I'm moving, other bad news I've received, has left me confused, apathetic, and unmotivated. I feel like a boiling pot of clashing flavors that can't decide whether its delicious gumbo or overcooked soup kitchen slop, yea lame analogy, I know, but I'm in a creative lock, this is the best I can come up with now. Hopefully I have your sympathy after that.
I need something to inspire me, these art books I have laying around aren't helping, I need to see a beautifully shot movie, or find some new animation media peice, like Wave twisters, some form of inspiration.
I'm venting | | |
| Starting tomorrow is my last week of work before I go on vacation, then
after that, I have approximately one month before I'm back on the CG
meat market, what does that mean? Well it means my association with
Sony is coming to an end. So a short time away, then its madness all
over again, makes me almost want to become dependant on either drugs or
alcohol. So I've started looking up job leads in production in either
broadcast, comerical, feature films. I don't know where I'll be by next
year, I won't even know if I'll still be in the country, everything
seems so uncertain right now, but I feel Montreal is where I should be.
We'll see.
ITALY
So I'm preparing for my trip to Italy, I
still don't feel the excitement of traveling yet, I think its work
sucessfully drowning everything out, my Aunt tells me I seem depressed,
but I'm not sure I am, I'm not happy, but I'm not emo that's for sure.
I
think Italy will be an interesting experience, get a small glimpse of
the world outside, the US i think is still very very much isolated
socially and culturally, hell we don't even know enough about our
fellow states let alone the world, I find it sad, and me going out
there is a small step to rectify this. I hope I don't get the travel
bug tho, this trip is seriously setting me back, even though I'm paying
a lot less than most people expected, I'll come back work for a month,
but it's going to be a lean Christmas for the Fengster. Most of my
money is going towards a my new car.
ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM
I've put
down a deposit roughly a week and a half ago on a 2007 black Mazdaspeed
3 sport. I know this car will do well, everyone's excited about it, the
kids at the awd camp car forums are worried over it, the dodge srt4
kids are angry over it, the critics are raving about it, I just want it
in my garage already. But the car isn't out yet, most have been sitting
at port awaiting final changes to the car before they're delivered to
showrooms, my car should be here any day now, so the clock keeps
ticking in Mazdaland.
Oh I'm gonna include this lame self proclamation of how unique and special I am to the world, because I was asked to.
S3V3N
7 things people would not know about me at first glance: 1. That I can speak. Although if I could use smoke signals, I would.
2. That I'm fairly religious/spiritual, and those who know usually think of me as a blasphemer of sorts.
3.
That I'm an intellectual, no I don't sit in my room and ponder the
universe, I sit on the toilet and ponder what to make for dinner now
that theres room.
4. That I know I'm not as good at
things I seem to be proud of doing, thats why I'm doing it, if I'm the
best then why try I'd know it already. Alright that was a bullshiot
answer, it didn't even make sense to me.
5. I like overcast days and fog, I'm from the Bay Area it only makes sense...
6. I'm extremely insecure.. oh wait.. no people know that already.. next secret of sorts.
7.
I borderline on Idolatry with my obsession with aesthetics and all
forms of beauty to where I'm scared to be a part of it in fear of
ruining it. Again, bullshit answer.
I tag no one, cuz no one is really ever gonna do this because I asked them to do so.
I feel mean spirited after doing that, so I end with this thought:
All
you kids who think painting drawing something obscure, replicating Andy
Warhol, or paste some lame objects together is art, then you need to
keep doing, so real artists stand out. Art is doing something to a
fevorous passion till it absolutely consumes your every thought and
guesture, stapling your lame sketch on some tin cans or wrapping
barbwires around your pumps is not art, and I feel sorry for the idiots
who actually spend the money to buy that stuff. I dedicate that to 80%
of the Art Institute of Califonia San Diego's student body. You going
to art school doesn't make you an artist. And good luck finding a job.
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| In about 2 weeks, your boy, yours truly, might be rolling around in a new car. I'll be broke, but I'll be happy for about, a week till I get over the novelty of owning a new car. Then its time to hit the shops. Then maybe the track, suprise a few people.
so. Anyone wanna buy me an mp3 deck? | | |
| First entry since June, I figure I'd update you jerks who don't bother to say wassup or visit on what I've been up to and what I have in store in the next few months, only a month left till I leave for Italy, and the only phrase I know in Italian is Ciao Bella, still I'm extremely excited, its been a while since I've left the country and this is the first time I'll be in Europe, those expecting souvenirs better ask now. I'm still working at Sony, and have secured a job till at least December, but beyond that is an unknown void, I prefer not to think about it. So those reading my previous entries, yes, my life is still very much like that of Bill Murray in groundhog day. As far as mountain biking, I've only use my bike a few times, it still looks brand freaking new. Go me.
I'm currently in the process of buying a new car but its a rare and hard to locate vehicle and the search so far has ended in bad sentiments, I am selling my car, I have a potential buyer, but anyone interested feel free to hit me up. I'm letting her go for 4 grand OBO.
Good thing is I've been fairly consistent with going to the gym, but alas to minimal and rather disappointing results, so I've hired a personal trainer, some people have scoffed and complained already, I accept that, but I've tried it out and its impressive, a workout buddy won't push you to this level, besides nothing is more motivating than money(in this case cost) and I figure once I learn a decent amount I'll just work out on my own again.
So there you have it, a quick update into the exciting saga that is my life....
oh,
and yes I have my continuing love affair with beer.
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